Thinks on Things

A gathering of ponderings…

News flash!

I just have to say that I like rock climbing! Going to spend all day Monday climbing the cliffs with some friends… Should be an interesting and fun day.

July 15, 2007 Posted by | All My Thinks | Leave a comment

It’s raining pretty!

I unpacked the chair and sat down to watch the fireworks. I had just joined my parents after their return from visiting relatives. We caught up on each others’ doings and had settled in to enjoy the festivities. With the huge Target store behind us and a wide open field before us our view was not a bad one. The distance was in my opinion just about right; there has to be a certain amount of delay between seeing the firework explode and anticipating the impending boom!

The test shots had been fired and revealed that it was indeed dark enough to begin the show. As the families on either side of us shifted seats and lowered their conversations, the real action began. Huge colorful displays with excellent sounds! We all ‘ooohed’ and ‘aaahed’ as the night lit up with colors flying all around the sky. Sizzling orange fizzlers, screeching bright flashes, red/white/blue combos, and giant blue and purple umbrellas opening with a bang!

And a small child’s voice cut through the chaos as turned to his mother. ‘Look,’ he said with awe, pointing across the plain, ‘It’s raining pretty!’ And it was. For a short time that night it had rained pretty. And he had seen it for the beauty it was to his innocent eyes and untested mind.

God, may I learn to see the beauty that is in my life all around me. Don’t let me be overrun by the coming darkness of night. May I learn to see again as a child sees. Help me to see it raining pretty in my world.

July 6, 2007 Posted by | All My Thinks | 1 Comment

Serenity Prayer

God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace.

Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

Reinhold Niebuhr

July 4, 2007 Posted by | All My Thinks | 1 Comment

Breaking the Silence

So naturally this is the place where I would apologize for not being around to post anything new… “I’m sorry.”

Anyway, in contrast to my silence online I wonder if God has not been so silent lately in my life. Or rather, maybe he has been silent for my own good up until now. Recently I went to a Boot Camp for men to learn more about how God wants to shape my life as a real man. Among many things I learned, I was also granted the opportunity for what I believe to be a glimpse of the future, a parting of the veil to see the “big picture” of God’s plan. It was a great and beautiful vision of one possibility of what could really happen in my life. It involved many aspects of my life taken to a deeper level with lots of people, some I know, some I will meet later. Without going into too details I’ll say that it was an awesome experience! And it scares the crap out of me.

I have not yet been able to think on this vision without being overcome with a rush of full scale emotions, good and bad. Some of these emotions provide a sense of simple peace, some make me angry. Sometimes I find myself extremly depressed, other times full of hope. And it may be a ploy of the Enemy, but I do not believe that I have the strength or courage to do what may be required to fulfill my part of this. In seeing my current response I am unimaginably grateful to God for not revealing this to me sooner as I had often asked him to do. It is now clear to me that I was not ready for such a revelation.

Obviously, now would be the time to take steps toward allowing this vision to become a reality. That would be truly amazing to have happen! But there are some major roadblocks in my way that I need to deal with. Last Sunday I had to remove myself from the service because I was not fit to take the Communion, especially after hearing a sermon about forgiveness. This is just one of my struggles between what is and what could be. This is a tough journey for me to make and I hope I can find the strength to fight a good fight and find peace in accepting whatever the result turns out to be.

July 4, 2007 Posted by | All My Thinks | Leave a comment